The Adventures Of Fabi

"I've never been perfect, but neither have you..."

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 22:49:50 GMT

YAY!!!! My favorite song off of Linkin Park's new CD is their new single!!! Here's the video for the song. It has so many references to the movie "Sunshine", and the video has nothing to do at all with the lyrics of the song, but that's typical of all Linkin Park's videos. I love all the cinematography and the cool special effects.

Linkin Park-Leave Out All The Rest

leave out all the rest
written and performed by linkin park
cd: minutes to midnight [2007]

i dreamed i was missing... you were so scared
but no one would listen, 'cuz no one else cared
after my dreaming, i woke with this fear
what am i leaving when i'm done here?

so if you're asking me, i want you to know...

when my time comes, forget the wrong that i've done
help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
don't resent me
and when you're feeling empty, keep me in your memory
leave out all the rest
leave out all the rest

don't be afraid
i've taken my beating, i've shared what i've made
i'm strong on the surface... not all the way through
i've never been perfect, but neither have you

so if you're asking me, i want you to know...

when my time comes, forget the wrong that i've done
help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
don't resent me
and when you're feeling empty, keep me in your memory
leave out all the rest
leave out all the rest

forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
pretending someone else can come and save me from myself

i can't be who you are

when my time comes, forget the wrong that i've done
help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
don't resent me
and when you're feeling empty, keep me in your memory
leave out all the rest
leave out all the rest

forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
pretending someone else can come and save me from myself

i can't be who you are...
i can't be who you are...

And the excitement just keeps pouring in.....

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 04:46:09 GMT

There was a good possibility of me going on one of these on May 10th:

It didn't work out. But it's all good, because....

I am so excited, even more excited than the cruise idea!!!! I was so excited, I started crying! And I'm still not allowing myself to be as excited as I should be because I don't want to jinx anything. It will be my first time going back in over 10 years! And my first real vacation in over 7 years! Going to Puerto Rico does not count as a vacation to me anymore. This does!!! And I have Jeremy to thank for it! =)

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 20:53:37 GMT

Just wanted to pop in and say hi since it's the only time I can. I have no internet access anymore as a result of... well, don't want to go into that. And I may have to move yet again. And I have no more minutes left on my cell phone until thursday, which of course means that if anyone calls me tomorrow on my birthday, I won't have any option but to ignore them. It's all good though. I am alive and well, still continuing all the birthday I have had this weekend, and trying to get myself back on track given all the obstacles that have been thrust upon myself in the last couple of weeks. But I mainly wanted to let everyone know I am fine.

I turn 28 tomorrow! God, I am old....

I am BEYOND excited!!!

Fri, 06 Apr 2007 01:56:52 GMT

Click HERE!!! to find out the best birthday gift I will get this year. It doesn't come out until two weeks after my birthday, but I don't care. It will definitely be worth the wait!

MY CHESTER IS BACK!!! Along with the rest of my hotties. It almost feels like an orgasm. =)

I am so happy.

Sat, 20 Jan 2007 18:26:35 GMT

Goodbye Bush... Hello Hillary!!!

AAAAAND..... the Holidays are over!

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 06:10:33 GMT

I'm back in Chicago after what felt like the longest flight of my life. I'm tired as hell, so I will just go to bed. But I promise an update is coming. LOTS of things happened while I was in Puerto Rico, and all I will say now is that this year will be the year I finally make things happen for myself. I WILL become the Fabian I have always wanted to be. But anyway, too tired here to talk about this right now. Going to crash now. Night y'all.

AAAAND.... the Holidays are here...

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 05:25:31 GMT

My bags are packed for tomorrow. I'm leaving to go to Puerto Rico for a whole month. And since I won't have internet access back home, this unfortunately means I won't be able to post/reply to anything. As much as I love my family and spending time with them, I don't know what the hell I am going to do with myself with no internet access FOR A WHOLE MONTH!!! Also truth be told I don't even want to be gone for a whole month, considering that I have to start looking for a job up here in Chicago. But..... I know a lot of places won't be doing much of any hiring during the Holidays anyway, and mom already bought the round trip ticket, so I really don't have another choice. And it will be good for me to be gone for that long anyway, I need time to relax and clear my mind off of a lot of things. Plus I get to see my family and my friends back home. I have not seen my friends back home in almost 3 years!!!! Last time I went home (about a year and a half ago) I was there for only 4 days, so of course I couldn't see anyone. Anyway... this trip should be good. It WILL be good.

And hopefully I won't come back with a crazy "coming-out-to-my-entire-family-including-the-father-I-have-not-spoken-to-in-over-four-years" story.

Anyway... I plan on calling everyone during the time I am back home so y'all better answer your phones. Otherwise, I wish everyone happy and safe holidays and a happy new year 2007.

And may Santa bring you all the toys and goodies you deserve for being not so naughty this year. =)

Because Danielle daisydeadpetal2 did it, and of course I had to do it....

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 01:38:05 GMT

Comment and I'll give you a letter; then you have to list 10 things you love that begin with that letter. Post your list in your journal, and give out some letters of your own; leave a comment for me here so I can read your list!

So Danielle gave me the letter *S* and here's my list:

1. Sunsets
2. Sandwiches
3. SEX!!! (sorry, I had to)
4. Sheryl Crow
5. Summer
6. Singing
7. Smiles
8. San Francisco
9. Sweets
10. Christopher Meloni -- ok, so his name doesn't start with an *S*, but there is an *S* in his name, AND thinking of him makes me think of #3 above, hehehehe.

First Chi-town entry

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 03:05:11 GMT

So this is my first official update as a Chicago/Westmont resident. =)

First things first, IT IS FREAKING COLD UP HERE! Now some of you are probably just shaking your heads either wondering why I am telling you the obvious or fighting your urge of blurting out a loud I-told-you-so. But hey it's not like I didn't know anyway, so whatever.

I unpacked pretty much everything that I conceive I will need at least for the next 3-4 months because I know that I will find a wonderful job soon, and along with that, a place of my own. For now, the rest will stay in boxes until I move again or until I need it, whichever comes first.

My computer is set up as well, though I was having a hard time the first night here trying to get my wireless card to pick up my mom's internet connection. But anyway, now I'm connected and able to talk to everyone, which God knows I will do now that I have all the time in the world for myself. I could start looking for jobs online, but that won't do me any good since I am leaving Thursday to go to Puerto Rico for a whole month with no internet access. And I could go out with my friends up here in Chi-town, except for, um, oh yeah that's right, I don't have any. =/

So honestly, I haven't done much of anything since I got here. All I have done has been going to the mall with mom everyday. She's the one doing all the shopping of course. I'm just there for moral support and to depress myself while I look at all the things I can't afford because I don't have a job yet.

Wow, those words feel so weird to say... "I don't have a job yet" It's been a while since the last time I said those words. Feels kinda good, I'm not going to lie. But I also feel like a slacker. It's all my doing though, I was the one who wanted to move to Chicago with no job.

Which brings me to Bloomington... it was actually harder to leave that I thought it would be. I think the hardest part was saying "goodbye" to Slagle (Leah S.) She helped me load my car up that morning. We started to say goodbye a little after... and the next thing I know she's crying, and the next thing I know I am crying, and then we hug and bawl each other's eyes out like we were being tortured or something. It was kinda funny actually looking back, but I never thought she would start crying that way when I left. I love Slagle. If anything, I know we will see each other in the future. She has to come to Chicago next year before she starts her job in Minneapolis anyway, so I know I will get to hang out again.

Saying goodbye to Dustin was hard as well. We hung out like two nights before I left town, and the entire night had a very bittersweet feeling. We enjoyed our night together and we smiled and laughed and joked around remembering a lot of things, which was something that had not really happened since we broke up. But going through all the memories was hard too because it just reinforced the fact that we were not together anymore, so then we started dissecting the entire relationship as a way to try to find closure. And I think we did find the closure we needed. If anything, I know we will stay in touch, and I hope we can remain friends after all this chaos that ensued between us. He is a great guy, and I know he will find someone in the future who will be able to offer him everything I was not able to. I want him to be happy.

Anyway, I am going to play my Game Cube for a bit. Paper Mario and the Thousand-Year Door is calling me. That game is very fun indeed.

3 days to an uncertain future...

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 21:19:52 GMT

So it seems like my final days here in Bloomington have started. Only 3 more days until I put the rest of my belongings in my car and move somewhere else... again. LOL. Funny, it only seems like yesterday that I had packed up everything I could out of my belongings in the trunk and the back seat of a rental car and moved 800 miles away from Louisiana to Bloomington, Indiana. I did not know what to expect at all. I didn't know this town at all except for what I was told about it by my friend Leah (Hoopty), and asides from her, I did not know a single soul up here. I didn't have a place to live, and although I had a rental car to move around, I had just lost my own car so I knew that, once I returned that rental car, I would not have a means of transportation. But nonetheless, I was excited. A new chapter was starting in my life. I was going to start my first ever full-time salaried job with benefits. And for the first time in my life, I was going to move to a new place completely on my own, which honestly, I was excited about because it was going to be a test of my true independence. For the first time I was feeling like a true adult. Kinda scary, but exciting as well.

It seems like it was yesterday, but it's been a little over two years. And man, a lot has happened in those two years. Many ups and downs have come and gone. The job I moved across the country for allowed me to afford many things I had never owned before and for the first time in my life, I was completely independent. But things took a turn for the worse, and after just one year I reached a point where I had to choose between sound financial stability and my own physical and emotional well-being. I chose the latter, and along with that decision, I had to say goodbye to the job I initially moved up here for. But I still wanted to give this town a chance to give me something, anything I could build myself again from. And so I went back to waiting tables for a living. Doing so was a very humbling experience for me after experiencing a high I had never reached before. But doing so also allowed me to meet some of the most wonderful people I have ever met in my life. People that, even though I can count them with one hand, had given me a chance of feeling like I belonged in this town. People that saw me through highs and lows and were there for me every step of the way and accepted me for who I am, with all my virtues and flaws. No need to name them, as I have named them over and over again throughout my entries and they know who they are.

Even though those people will always be in my heart, one of them will always hold a very special place in my life. The one person I got the closest to and actually allowed me in his life in the way I had not experienced in a long time. When I look back in time I will remember many things out of Bloomington, but my relationship with Dustin will forever be one of the highlights. He saw me through many highs and lows, always gave me his love and support, and allowed me to share some of that love back. It was that same love that made us realize that we were in two very different stages in life and that we were better off by ourselves. But I will always love him and hold him close to me in spite of what the future holds for us.

But anyway, here I sit 3 days away from my next major move in life. The level of uncertainty in my life right now is skyrocketing to a level I have not experienced before. But I can't shut myself out or run to a corner and crawl up in fetal position as a result. I haven't shut myself out before, why should I start now? As uncertain as my future looks like at the moment, I am still looking up to it with anticipation, and a somewhat skeptic excitement.

Wow, this entry turned out to be so freaking introspective in nature.

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 03:29:06 GMT

As from tonight, I am no longer an Olive Garden/Darden Inc employee, and it feels great. At the same time I know I will miss everyone. I have a lot of great memories I will take with me.

One more week until I move to Chi-town for good. Excited as all hell, needless to say. I'm driving up there tomorrow to take half of my stuff to mom's and spend time with my brother and my relatives who are flying in from Puerto Rico. Very excited about that one too.

Anyway, not much time for an actual update, but as soon as I get to mom's I will type one. Love y'all.

Fri, 24 Nov 2006 06:36:42 GMT

First off, hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving with your family and/or friends.

I had a great holiday. Last night Mindy and I held our annual OG Thanksgiving Shindigle at her place. A ton of people from the restaurant showed up and we had a blast. Got a little drunk too with the wonderful apple cider that Mindy made, that was wonderfully spiked with tons of vodka and wine. =) Ate a ton of food that Mindy and others made as well. Flirted with some of my very straight co-workers as a result of my drunkenness. Overall had a great time.

Then today, I wanted to go to mom's in Chicago, but when I talked to her earlier in the week she said she and Tom were not going to do anything special for Thanksgiving. Soooo, I spent the day with Mindy and her family instead. We drove 2 hours back to her hometown in Aurora, Indiana which is right outside of Cincinnati, Ohio. We had a great time with her family. Her dad is funny as hell so I see where she got her sense of humor from. There was an atmosphere of relaxation the entire afternoon, which was great. We then drove back to her apartment in Bloomington, where her boyfriend Matt was waiting for us, and we all decorated her apartment with Christmas trees (5 of them!, hehehe) and made pizza from scratch, which turned out pretty good.

Side note: so I was thinking about waking up early tomorrow morning to go to Best Buy and take advantage of the sales and stuff, and Mindy wanted to tag along with me. Um.... not so much anymore! Mindy and I drove by Best Buy when we got back into town. There were people camping out outside the building. Like, literally camping out, with camping tents and all, and the line of people was already extending around the corner of the store. This was at 8 PM!!!!! Which means these people will have camped almost 10 hours by the time the store opens tomorrow, and there's no telling how many of those people got there before 8 PM. So yeah, needless to say, I won't be going to Best Buy tomorrow. =( Probably the best thing for me, since I really don't need to buy an XBox 360 yet.

Anyway, have a great night everyone. Love ya'll.

Doing what I need to do...

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 02:12:22 GMT

So, "An Inconvenient Truth" came out on DVD today, which means I was finally able to watch it. I wanted to go see it at the theater the day it came out, just like I did when "The Day After Tomorrow" came out.

Here I am sitting in front of the computer and I think I am at a general loss of words for how I truly feel after watching the movie, but I know that I have to do something. It baffles me (actually scares me beyond description) that there is all this evidence in front of politicians supporting all the facts about global warming and how it is a legit threat to human civilization as we know it, and mind you all this evidence is piling up as high as freaking Mt. Everest, and politicians, ESPECIALLY REPUBLICANS, just shrug their shoulders annd still DARE to say that global warming is just a hoax. It obviously isn't, especially since the first thing that Republicans try to do when movies like "An Inconvenient Truth" and "The Day After Tommorrow" come out is to try to stop them from being released to the theaters. Are their minds that guilt-ridden that they will go to extremes in order to stop the truth from coming out? Or I dunno, maybe it's just the fact that Al Gore made the movie. Anyway, this is one of those movies that regardless of what political beliefs you hold, you HAVE to watch this movie. And we have to take steps to ensure that the message that Al Gore and the entire scientist community have been trying to filter out to the general population is not only heard, but turns into a message we can all learn from and do something about. And one of the things we can do is to make sure WE DON'T EVER ELECT ANOTHER FUCKTARD LIKE GEORGE DUMBASS BUSH TO BE OUR PRESIDENT! It's time we start taking responsibility for our roles in global warming. I truly commend Al Gore for all the efforts he is doing to spread the overall message of warning, and the thousands of people around the world trying to do the same. I have always wanted to do something about it, and I can't believe it never really hit me how badly I wanted to do something about and for the environment until I watched this movie. I mean, all you have to do is watch it to see the tremendous amount of scientific evidence that supports global warming, from ice shelves the size of Rhode Island breaking off from Antarctica, to some of the worst tropical storms we have witnessed in recorded history, including the first ever tropical storm to form south of the Equator, to some of the highest temperatures we have seen in this planet all ocurring within the last 14 years! It is scary indeed, but you have to see the movie to see just how scary it can get if we don't do something about it. Let's just say that "The Day After Tomorrow" is not all fiction.

Anyway, sorry for the long rant... the environment is one of those things I am passionate about, and I think tonight I may have even been reminded of how truly passionate I am about it. And I can't stand still and not do anything after watching this movie, even if it's just telling all my friends about the movie. Please watch it if you have the time. Maybe all the evidence presented in the movie won't be enough to completely convince you that global warming is an actual threat, but I can guarantee you it will AT LEAST make you think and question your stance on the issue.

You can also go to http://www.climatecrisis.net and find out more info about the movie and the subject of global warming.

Anyway, I'm off to bed. Later kiddos.

I think I won't be able to sleep tonight after watching this....

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 05:48:02 GMT

.... BUT I SO CANNOT WAIT FOR THIS MOVIE ANY LONGER!!!!!!!!

http://www.doyouhaveagrudge.com

Friday the 13th, people!!! I'm SOOOOO excited.

HAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 17:59:12 GMT

Your Homicidal Rampage! by crash_and_burn

Your name:

Weapon of Choice:

Laser gun

Your Favorite Target:

Dendrophiliacs

Your Kill Count:

1,280,798,912

Your Battle Cry:

"Yo mama!"

Years You Spend in Jail:

How Much Money In Damages You Cause:

$23,440,036,107,330

Your Homocidal Insanity Level:

87%

Sat, 08 Apr 2006 17:28:21 GMT

Just wanted to let everyone know I am still alive and hating my roommate more than ever. =)

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 03:07:41 GMT

OMG Liz! Sheryl Crow has breast cancer!!! =(

http://music.msn.com/music/article.aspx?news=216637>1=7756

Hehehehe!!!!! =P

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 21:56:14 GMT

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Sun, 29 Jan 2006 06:33:42 GMT

Had dinner with mommie dearest and Tom. We went to the same yummy Chinese buffet I went to last night with Asa. So I have had enough yummy Chinese buffet in two nights to last me the entire year... well, maybe not. But still, I ate so much it ain't even funny. And so, I see one of my goals for 2006 slip away under my rolls of fat... or something like that.

Sat, 28 Jan 2006 23:46:37 GMT

My mom is in Bloomington!!! She decided to do a last-minute, spur-of-the-moment visit to her fabulous son. And she is in town right now. Thankfully I was able to find someone to cover my shift tonight, though I still had to go to work for about 2 hours. Anyway, on the agenda now: quick shower, getting ready, and going to the Hampton Inn to see mommie dearest and have dinner with her and Tom. Nighty kiddos. =)

I'm either so sick in the head, I need to be bled dry to quit... or I just really used to love him

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 16:21:00 GMT

I think I am coughing up my entire respiratory system... look, there is one of my bronchial tubes on top of my alarm clock.

But me and everybody's on the sad same team, and you can hear our sad brains screaming

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 04:55:14 GMT

YAY!!! My friend Asa picked up my lunch shift tomorrow, which means I can be sick AND lazy tomorrow! Is that beautiful. Though I think Asa is a little mad now because Tom forgot to tell him that my shift was a lunch closing shift. But hey, at least he will be making money while my throat keeps going into rebellion mode against me.

So the boy and I hung out again tonight. I still think he's crazy for hanging out with me when I am coughing out my throat and my lungs, but at the same time it was so sweet of him that he did. He brought Margaret Cho's first DVD (we're both Margaret Cho fans) and the intention was for us to watch it, but instead we just hung out and chatted the entire team he was here. He then left to go to work. He's so adorable though, and HILARIOUS as hell. Like, I really have a great time when I hang out with him. And he's very attractive too, which is a plus. It took all I had to not kiss him just because I don't want to get him sick. But yeah, we haven't even made out yet, and he still wants to hang out. I'm in shock. Not that it is a bad thing, I'm just in shock. I had a great time with him again, and that's all that matters. But anyway, no more details just yet.

Anyway, I'm going to go frolic in the fact that I have a sick day tomorrow! =) Nighty night kiddos.

It doesn't make sense... I should fall for the kingcraft of a meritless crown.

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 22:33:41 GMT

Well, apparently microorganisms have an affinity for me, because I am sick AGAIN!!! I have a viral infection, and my throat is killing me right now. I just got back from the doctor, where I got tested for strep throat and thankfully I am clear. But still, the bitch of my throat hurts like hell! And the most lovely thing about being sick this time is that I can't talk. I couldn't call in sick this morning, so I had to go to the restaurant and talk to Tom in sign language. Thankfully I had already warned him last night of the possibility of me not having a voice today, and as soon as he saw I couldn't talk, he was like "go home... NOW!" as he slowly backed away from me as if I had the plague. I don't blame him though... I would have done the same thing if it were him who were sick. =/ So yeah, I left work, went to Promptcare and spent $50 to find out that I have a viral infection that I can't do anything about except let it run its course. Hip-hip-fucking-hooray for me!

So here I am at home twirling my thumbs having absolutely nothing to do. Well, that's a lie. I could do laundry, but i mean, really, who wants to do laundry when they are sick? The boy called me and he wants to hang out with me today, but I warned him that I am radioactive and biohazard at the moment and that if he wants to hang out with me, it will be at his own risk.

And so, the boy is coming over later. Either he's more stubborn than I will ever be, or he wants to get sick so he can be off work. But anyway, he's coming over later. And yes, it is the same boy I have been hanging out with for the last few days. Again, no details just yet.

And finally, and off the topic, I'm so excited. Mindy and Jason both got MySpace accounts! YAY!!! One more reason for me to start liking MySpace. But LJ is still my heart. =)

Alrighty, boy called and he's on his way. He's crazy. Oh well. Talk to you later, kiddos. =)

Io sogno di essere un bello italiano! =)

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 20:39:33 GMT

Your Inner European is Italian!

Passionate and colorful.

You show the world what culture really is.

Who's Your Inner European?

Wed, 18 Jan 2006 07:57:47 GMT

Well hello 29-degree weather and 2 inches of snow!!!